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To be changed

2006-08-24T00:39:00.000-08:00

Just finished o level oral test and straight away from that school backed home.Feeling careladen !Everything seems not on the right track...was thinking what i did when i having oral test.I dont know this time can pass or not , i am quite worry about the test..
Now i am live alone.Maybe can enjoy the freedom but i feel vacuous.Now eating disorder, having nothing in order.Not doing my work, no study at all,Everyday depressed.My life is in a mess...
Now i tried to play some sports, tried to engage myself in things,tried to keep my mind occupied.
I think i must to be changed, But then of course everything always happens for a reason, I guess it was never meant to be,But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is...maybe one day we will wake up and this all will just a dream.
Cheer up and wake up now,life is simple, they make choices, it is they don't look back..

A Fun Day

2006-07-29T08:54:00.000-08:00

Went out with my cousin and her friends today.Was a fun day, we all bought a lot clothes..so long nv buy anything to myself le.><"I bought a nike bag and a topmen shirt.these days a lot new movies coming le ,haiz i want watch "the lake house"anyone wants come with me??Anyway have alot fun and was joking all the way with my cousin's friend..should end here tml need go work ..

Untitled

2006-07-25T04:34:00.000-08:00

Felt so tired when i get home..As usual i opened my laptop and logged into my msn.Then opened her friendster..saw a testi there.......As my friend said: the more u cared the more u will hurt..TT
But everything is made by myself, i so stupid ...i am really a useless person.she deleted the testi tat she has sent to me in my frienster.I dont know what tat means but she dont even want leave any momeries to me .Den i called her and asked .The answer is bcouz her new bf.I so stupid ...useless ...
The person who i missed ,she miss him;
The person who i cared ,she care him;
The person who i want to wait, she want to wait him;
The person who i loved .she love him.
ya now i m mad , really crazy ...i m nobody ...
i m really sick of this world.The night goes on as I'm fading away ,I'm sick of this life .I just wanna scream...TT
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupidstupid...

perfect love

2006-07-21T23:32:00.000-08:00

long time nv blog le, feel so tired everyday after school and work..my body pain and my heart felt cold. Read a blog very nice den copied a story below:
A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage,SDU and requested "I am looking for a spouse.Please help me to find a suitable one." The SDU officer said,"Your requirements,please." "Oh,good looking,polite,humorous,sporty,knowledgeable,good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if i dont go out. Telling me interesting stories when i need companion for conversation and be silent when i want to rest." The officer listened carefully and replied, "I understand u need television."There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband,because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husbank cannot hear the nagging of the wife.Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfecat relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.
(That tell the true. everyone looking for a perfect lover but nv know that is only exists at fairy- tale.In this real world everyone wear a mask and live like play a role-play.all selfish...)

04/06/06

2006-06-04T01:21:00.000-08:00

Happiness is always too short and beautiful to be impractical. Let me not to disappear hangover. I know that even more and more profound love, one day will become dull, so they no longer cherished. They hold in their own hands the whole, who can guarantee their own is the only constant and enduring love. Accustomed to looking at betrayal and lies, I no longer believe that love. Indifferent to see all around the hypocritical mask, ugly feel meaningless.

3/06/06

2006-06-03T05:27:00.000-08:00

Today study at home. Now Jun le study week ,everyday is foreced to study but still nothing beat into my brain.Arrrrrrr...headache le.Next week got test ..sian.
Yesterday night went to play basketball with my friends.Knew them at the basketball court at the cc near the MRT.Play untill my mum called me, the time is 12:40.Atfter play felt so relax then head to home.Went home then checked my msn.It is so sad le, she one whole day nv online le.Haiz on msn just wait to see her online only.>.<"
This month jia you, muz study hard and work hard.Long time never go to work le. Think next week go ba...

31/5/06

2006-05-31T03:37:00.000-08:00

A boring day as usual.Studied whole day at school,then went to robotic trainning.Today quite boring but my brain was working.I attended the lesson and listened the teaching.Think i have learnt the knowledge from the teacher ba.Ok now muz study hard le.
Haiz, the memories still in my mind, it's hard to forget.Thinking her everyday ,from night to morning.Y i cant forget ? i was on the verge of tears when everytime i thinking of her.I am so stupid.One month le,dun know she is fine or not? happy meh?Good luck to you!
Totally break le; these days nv go to work.Today paid school fees $6417.55.A lot money magan de by school le dun know this week eat wad le.Now think of myself, 1yr in poly is finished le ,still slacking? Sometimes i dun konw wad i want, no target, nothing...
Now i stir myself slowly.. slowly..

28/5/06

2006-05-27T09:36:00.000-08:00

Hmmm... today rot at home whole day.Morning woke up by my cousin,bcoz today suppose to go her house to learn play piano ( is electrical de le)but she got work so cancelled.I am learning play the song(tong hua) .I was learning play this song two weeks le. so difficult...haiz......-.-" actually i want learn it is bcoz i want show this song during someone's birthday and try to make she happy de.She will be 18 le that is a very important day.Hope she will be happy ba!-.- But now no use le i still want to learn haiz...
In the afternoon, my ex-gf( z x y) online le,we chatted using the QQ.She is fine and now in university yr 3 le one more yr graduate. haiz i still in polytecnic.Don't know y this time chatted so long but ended bcoz she asked my relationship with hui.I don't want say it anymore le really feel hurted and sad.haiz nv know she still go to read my msn space during this 4 yrs.
Now just after playing basketball,feel tired But i am in a good humor.Suddenly hv the passion to study keke..but still stress when i thinking of the project and the coming o' level.Ok let's do it...jia you!

26/5/06

2006-05-26T15:40:00.000-08:00

Now at school, 1st time blogging during lesson.These days nothing happened, life is stable. Studied at school everyday.Project, report, quiz, lots of school work waiting for me to finish.Felt buzy and stress.

Badday

2006-05-19T22:58:00.000-08:00

Now all my happiness is forgotten........what should i do?I don't even dare to type my feelings in my msn space anymore.My life is so miserable.it doesn't matter even if no one believe in me ....my heart broke into pieces.I don't know how to explain.....What kind of person am i?whatever up to u. i just want to stress that i'm not wei jun zi, i nv act in front of my classmate to earn their compassion.I need time to heal my wound. Now i typed my feelings in my space to release my sadness . Y can't u feel that it's out of love that i did all these for u ?How come u misunderstanding me as a hypocrite.Is it my purpose to show my classmates how broken i am to earn their compassion so that u will come back to me. What u want me to do now? You will not like if i keep on pestering u. I gave up! i just want to release my feeling but not trying to earn tong qing from u. hai.......
Now u have hated me so much, i don't care what will u think of me .Everything is over ,i am tired and had enough of it.
Here i am, apologise to someone ,take care of yourself .

17/5/2006

2006-05-17T03:33:00.000-08:00

1st i want thanks my nyp classmates, ak,rainy,sam,thank u all helped me to edit my new blog ,keke this one especially for u all.Thanks ak for ur big help but ur mai dang dang forget it ba ,lolx ,think can treat u drink if u want go pub next time.
huh,finally my new blog almost completed le.This one is for me to record my daily life and i will type by english so hope can improve my english too.plz lo ,u all don't laugh can? if there is a mistake in my sentence.Hope u can help me to correct it thanx.diaoz ,feel so paisey ,keke.
This week think should be a busy week ,got lots things to do ,robotic training, care and share leadership camping,but today cant go the camping le coz i hv absent for last robotic training.I need catch up with my group.But the vice president called me ,diaoz ,so scary.he same not happy with me le.haiz.The robotic training is fun, my group is the best and always the 1st finished all the programming.(ps: only two group)
Due to my school works, this week is better than last week le,i know u all cared me and even someppl came shared with me,thanx to u all ,xie xie ni men.Is bcoz u all ,my life can still going on.yes, i m so weak when she leave me. Though she hurted me badly ,but maybe there is someting she don't want to tell me ,bcoz she don't know how to say to me face to face .I don't know but maybe .......
I still can't forget her,haiz,stupid me.
Hope teacher giv me lots of homeworks so i can spent more times to study.
Do u believe there is a love likes fairy tales ?

Yes .I believe .

Yi
21:21pm

S.H.E

2006-05-12T20:46:00.000-08:00

YOU'RE SO INEXTRICABLE!
maybe i m just too feeble... i just cant get you out..(i m really tryin very hard...)
its raining..
tears are rolling down..
its so cold..
like the way i m feeling inside..
but i'll get over it..
just a matter of time..

( er this one copy one,my english not tat good ,paisey.i'll improve.)

start afresh

2006-05-11T21:18:00.000-08:00

Happy...Think my life will happy.